A thousand miles away from Mr. Smiles, Sandra can finally begin to heal.  On Episode 8, she discusses her spiritual journey, being in a lesbian relationship, and building a new life in Los Angeles.  It takes several years, but she finally heals, and finds peace and love.

Episode Eight - Into Being

A son interviews his mother about her experiences growing up as a lesbian in the Mormon church, her nightmarish journey through the LDS Conversion therapy for homosexuals, and her escape from an abusive marriage. Sandra's son also wrote, performed, and recorded the music for the series.

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On the first Episode Sandra recounts what she can remember from her early childhood.  Growing up in the 50s as a tomboy in Idaho, before knowing what it was to be a lesbian.  Being bullied, fighting back, and discovering an escape through theater.

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Episode One - Idaho Tomboy

On the second Episode Sandra takes us from her childhood into her early adulthood.  She explains how she became a convert into the Mormon religion and how she was ostracized because her parents drank coffee and her dad smoked cigarettes.  She chronicles her first romances and we hear about her first kiss.  And the fateful circumstances that would send her to Utah to undergo conversion therapy.

Episode Two - Carhop and California

On Episode Three Sandra explains to her son how she was lured into the LDS church.  Then we learn more about the long history of intolerance from the leaders of the Mormon church.  And finally, she describes the nightmare that was her conversion therapy at Brigham Young University.

Episode Three - The Anti Gay Saints

On Episode four Sandra’s son finds out how she met his father, “Mr. Smiles,” and what events led up to them getting married.  We learn about the red flags she ignored and we hear the nightmarish details of his abuse beginning to unfold.

Episode Four - Mr. Smiles

On Episode Five Sandra has the shattering realization that she did not marry a Man of God.  The abuse continues to escalate and she finds herself having another child with Mr. Smiles.  Then Sandra and her son discuss what goes on inside the mind of an abused person.

Episode Eight - Into Being

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